Wednesday, July 20, 2011
以前的我们，都是过去。
现在 总觉得你们对我的事一点都没兴趣。
你说我自私，说我只顾自己的烦恼。
我承认，我自私，我完全对别人所经历的烦恼一无所知。
就因为你们不说，我才不管。
对，我自私， 可是不至于让你对我说出无耻的话。
烦恼，大家都有， 我的虽然没什么特别， 可是， 说实话， 我喜欢有人为我操心，保护我，帮我抛开烦恼。
可是真的没想到， 我最可靠的朋友， 却把我丢弃。
不是走了，是变了。
人，随着时间变。 我果然也变了， 可是， 还是跟以前差不多。
对不起。 你说过的那番话， 我都不想再记了。
每一天， 都会想起你们， 想到你们，就想到从前， 都知道那些日子不再能挽回， 心碎了。
总觉得我们之间有了些误会， 可能是被别人说错话， 可能是被别人侮辱，也有可能是自己想太多。
我自己也不清楚。
我想， 我想把话说清楚。
四个月里经历过的痛苦，真的好想让人明白， 当我最需要他们的时候，都不在。 都不知道要怎么说出口。
到现在， 我觉得只有自己心里知道， 痛苦， 要怎么形容。
好爱你们， 真的真的好爱你们， 真的。
在我这十九年曾经交过的每个朋友， 就只有几个最棒。 恭喜你们都入围。
那是以前。
好想，好想说出真心。 可是，却不想把自己被别人当着笨蛋来看待。
I’m not desperate. I’m not begging for you to come back to me. I’m not begging.
失望， 真的真的很失望。
别误会， 没说谁， 只说失望。
我把那些美好的回忆都把它给写下来了，知道自己有过那么幸福的过去，让我毫无遗憾。
口口声声 在这里说出一句谢谢。 对谁说只有我知道， 别人怎么想，随他的。
说道来， 真的很讨厌那些自以为是的人。 以为每一句话都是对着他们说的。
我有说到你的名字吗？
有时候， 当然会觉得好像是在说着自己， 可是， 再把事情闹大以前， 先确认一下事实。
我是好人， 也是坏人。
可是， 在你眼里， 是好是坏， 都靠你自己怎么想。 不信我吗？
心理学，真的帮了我很多。
现在，宁晨三点半， 该睡了。
谢谢他们， 一直都保护我，一直都教导我。 那堆人， 我不知道真么感谢他们。 哈哈， 我真的好幸福。
&没有了，我还是会好好过。
以前的我们，都是过去。
现在 总觉得你们对我的事一点都没兴趣。
你说我自私，说我只顾自己的烦恼。
我承认，我自私，我完全对别人所经历的烦恼一无所知。
就因为你们不说，我才不管。
对，我自私， 可是不至于让你对我说出无耻的话。
烦恼，大家都有， 我的虽然没什么特别， 可是， 说实话， 我喜欢有人为我操心，保护我，帮我抛开烦恼。
可是真的没想到， 我最可靠的朋友， 却把我丢弃。
不是走了，是变了。
人，随着时间变。 我果然也变了， 可是， 还是跟以前差不多。
对不起。 你说过的那番话， 我都不想再记了。
每一天， 都会想起你们， 想到你们，就想到从前， 都知道那些日子不再能挽回， 心碎了。
总觉得我们之间有了些误会， 可能是被别人说错话， 可能是被别人侮辱，也有可能是自己想太多。
我自己也不清楚。
我想， 我想把话说清楚。
四个月里经历过的痛苦，真的好想让人明白， 当我最需要他们的时候，都不在。 都不知道要怎么说出口。
到现在， 我觉得只有自己心里知道， 痛苦， 要怎么形容。
好爱你们， 真的真的好爱你们， 真的。
在我这十九年曾经交过的每个朋友， 就只有几个最棒。 恭喜你们都入围。
那是以前。
好想，好想说出真心。 可是，却不想把自己被别人当着笨蛋来看待。
I’m not desperate. I’m not begging for you to come back to me. I’m not begging.
失望， 真的真的很失望。
别误会， 没说谁， 只说失望。
我把那些美好的回忆都把它给写下来了，知道自己有过那么幸福的过去，让我毫无遗憾。
口口声声 在这里说出一句谢谢。 对谁说只有我知道， 别人怎么想，随他的。
说道来， 真的很讨厌那些自以为是的人。 以为每一句话都是对着他们说的。
我有说到你的名字吗？
有时候， 当然会觉得好像是在说着自己， 可是， 再把事情闹大以前， 先确认一下事实。
我是好人， 也是坏人。
可是， 在你眼里， 是好是坏， 都靠你自己怎么想。 不信我吗？
心理学，真的帮了我很多。
现在，宁晨三点半， 该睡了。
谢谢他们， 一直都保护我，一直都教导我。 那堆人， 我不知道真么感谢他们。 哈哈， 我真的好幸福。
& 没有了，我还是会好好过。
Jamie Lee
22:14
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
you know what? i FUCKING hate liars. I hate ppl who lie to others just to make sure that person wont get what they always wanted. I hate betrayers. it hurts me to know that someone so close to me decide to fuck up our friendship. IM TIRED. I REGRET EVER PUTTING YOUR ADVICE INTO MIND. I REGRET GIVING UP. i hope you realize you're one lying cunt, I know its rude. but im tired, of you pretending to like me, PRETENDING to be friends, PRETENDING THAT NOTHING HAPPENED. because EVERY FUCKING THING STARTED FROM YOU.
Jamie Lee
22:07
Friday, April 8, 2011
this year, has been extremely hectic, and one day I just sit back and relax, the next day would require hardcore study and double work time. sigh. at one point, i really wanted to give up so so badly. but I already came this far, whats the use of turning back? what else to do even if i did?
I WAN COOOKEEEE.
i really miss alot of group outings and hanging out sessions. but the only place i get to hang out now is the library. the oh-so-fucking noisy library. this year, everything is more frustrating. IDKY. period i guess. somehow, reports assignments like to stick close to each other, due dates one after another, when will it stop? when will i get one week of HOLIDAY, like for real, just holiday and no work, no assignment, no reports, no shit. when will I get a day like this?
& whats lost can never be found again.
Jamie Lee
23:25
Thursday, January 27, 2011
i feel dead. i dont have much to blog about nowadays, i feel that no ones reading it anyway. been testing out some beauty products, will post it up soon! ((:
& I hope I'll catch your eye this time.
Jamie Lee
22:42
Monday, January 3, 2011
okay. blogger wont let me upload anymore photos. im gonna have to stop. this is PART 2! ((:
fak. its backwards again. anyway.
Master SIM's big day. ((:
June 3rd.
JULY 2010
went for a 3 day 2 night trip in melaka with the usual peeps. ((:
Tien tien's birthday. ((:
Awesome BBQ party over at TTG's house. ((:
also Martins farewell. xD One of the best moments in my life, i mean, not the sending martin off part la. HAHA.
AUGUST!
SORRY. this is for september. HAHA.
chen you a.k.a Lame you.
our own demo-God. XD
AUGUST! 2010
Kai siangs 19th birthday. ((:
September 2010
started a little baking hobby! ((:
but i still continued buying cupcakes. xD
Ben's big day. ((:
October - November 2010
the awesome lab demo called me at 10th of October 2010 10:10 pm. XD
said my goodbyes to my two adorable niece and nephews. ((:
i miss you!
my sister looks anaeroxic. :O
October 17th 2010
The awesome foursome that went for Adam lambert's first concert in Asia!!! had VIP tix. I love you Janey seah
My darling came to visit me in uni. ((: love you.
Darling Zyu's birthday. ((: awesome memories.
iloveyou.
spend alot of time with the monashians, the new bunch of awesome buddies. ((:
Stalked hot dude with my darling sister jane. ((:
Sliced up frogs with the sister and lame you + KPtay.
my one and only awesome lab demo!
if i looked a little nicer, would've framed this photo up.
xD
November 24th
had a little trip to melaka with Thad , Ju and siang. ((: ATE ALL DAY. freaking fat and awesome!
December 6- december 14th
the best buddy came to celebrate my birthday on the 6th. love you so so muchie!!! XOXO
December 7th - had an actual celebration, the tan, the loo came over for dinner. the tan stayed for supper, we went to CHAR CHAN TENG, had that stupid huge drink and nearly died of sweetness. pfft. thank you tan, thank you loo. i love you both.
December 8th - went to class and met up with the monashians for my OTHER birthday celebration. xD had Paddingtons and went for a movie. ((:
love you guys.
For the whole week, had a crazy video call session with the tan and wan teng.
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY malaysian version. xD
December 16-31st
had a little shopping spree with the KK buddy. over spent!!!! ><><
celebrated Christmas eve with the chans at Grand Millenium. :D
the buddy came back on Christmas and we had dinner at a Thai place of which I have forgotten its name. xD love you!
31st December
had a little new years eve dinner with the gang plus nura and an qi. pictures are kinda backwards, stupid uploader. =/
28-30th, stayed over in vons house in melaka. watched a few series and realized how awesome pps stream is. :D
Phoebe junior. ((: lokes dog. damn cute.
Prawn fishing in melaka. :D
Jamie Lee
21:07
i really miss alot of group outings and hanging out sessions. but the only place i get to hang out now is the library. the oh-so-fucking noisy library. this year, everything is more frustrating. IDKY. period i guess. somehow, reports assignments like to stick close to each other, due dates one after another, when will it stop? when will i get one week of HOLIDAY, like for real, just holiday and no work, no assignment, no reports, no shit. when will I get a day like this? 
Awesome BBQ party over at TTG's house. ((: 
December 7th - had an actual celebration, the tan, the loo came over for dinner. the tan stayed for supper, we went to CHAR CHAN TENG, had that stupid huge drink and nearly died of sweetness. pfft. thank you tan, thank you loo. i love you both. 
