went for lunch with sher rin todayh! yeah. we spend almost 130 bucks on lunch and ice cream. xD i got CONNED! GGGGAH. well. i just. spent. alot. :(

had a trip to mv and the gardens with my 2 besties. :) atie and deeeeeeenz. *screw al. you owe me pool. * they came over after that. and yesh. lotsa lotsa pictures. but i picked the BEST out of the best.

are you really that stupid?
did you really think you could've gotten away from all this?
originality.
what do you know about it?
enlighten me.
the way you talk,
reminds me of someone.
the way you dress,
reminds me of someone;
the way you ACT,
reminds me of someone;
the way you write,
reminds me of someone;
the things you do,
originates from someplace else.
I don't know who you are anymore.



are you having problems getting used to yourself?
when are you going to come out from that place you hid since forever?
who are you?
you are like a bit of everyone,
mimic? copy? duplicate?
what are you?
why are you doing this?

the ideas,
the styles,
the cool things other people did,
you just took it away from them,
and claimed it was yours.
we're observant people you see,
we're not exactly as dumb you think we are.
and please,
stop claiming things that doesn't belong to you.
even if they were trends, or slides.
or just. THINGS.
its just unfair for you to claim credit,
when someone else crapped themselves to think of that idea.
stop hiding your true self,
you don't have to be special to make us like you.
because now,
you are just a bull-a-shit to me.

i really hate it when people exaggerate.
especially about my SIZE.
yeah.
im fat.
so what?
no offence.
but i get really offended,
when people add unappropriate words into sentences.
or things that i had once said.
but made it sound completely different.
i did not INSIST that ___________________.
i did not.

and i was REALLY offended and insulted by that.
as long as someone disses me about my size,
they go from a hero to zero.
its forgivable,
but just unforgettable.
Quite a number of people have done this before,
so please don't misunderstand me.


& I miss you, AM.

gladly.
thanks to taylor lautner??!?!?!?
nah. i prefer him with taylor swift. really.

im really in love with the dota song now.
lets see la dadi dum dum ~
JAHAHAHAYGFAUHAKA;
what am i saying.
i have survived a very very awful week.
and when the results come back,
it'd be worst.
although im looking forward to bio,
and maybe applics,
for a good laugh.

A new jamie theory : emo people write happy blogs, happy people write emo blogs. that thought reached my mind even faster than the time i took to type it out.. less than 5 seconds maybe? but well, the theories that i think of in 5 seconds usually don't make sense.. or as SOME of my GOOD friends would say, anything awesome that jamie thinks of is retarded. and yes. I've been hearing that word quite often. it used to be heard like once a month, now i hear it everyday.I guess friends call each other unpleasant names as a way of showing love? ah crap. another theory that makes no sense.

And you wana know something?? I laugh at people who customize their proton/perodua cars. Im sorry, i guess im a car-sists.i Don't know why la. customize as in adding nice rims or lights, or some awesome shit turbo to make it go faster or look cooler, its just . funny.


AND a perfect way to start a new topic because I'm too retarded to think of any other ways to start. I went to Al's blog, and i feel so insulted right now!!!
nah. just messing with you babe. She wrote about the people tHat TypE LyKe Di$ O YuzE EffYin aLotZ oF ShorT fOrM Sh!t$. * gasping for air. that took me long enough. I completely totally agreed with Al. ( sorry Zyu, I love your blog no matter what! ) funny huh. i came up with some theories (yes theories) on why people type like that. I guess maybe there's some stalker or jackass spamming the authors blog and leaving some unpleasant comments behind so the author tries to take revenge by hurting their eyes. OR! the blog is kinda dead and they're afraid people won't read it so they use letters and make them into patterns. which i don't see how is it NOT possible to drive someone away. when i see ugly words, i leave, and don't come back. but thats just my opinion la, some people may LOVE It, and I respect that, its a free world. I'm not gonna ask YeW 2 $tOp Ta!piNg LiDd@t cOz Di$ iS a FwEe WorLd. okay, hand pain. PLUS, i get really really annoyed when people try to be cute when they're TYPING *Godblessyou* example, the " I love you's " and the "I miss You's" somehow became I LUB you and I MISH you. but then once again, its a free world la. :)

had dinner just now at a restaurant, and there was cigg smoke ALL around me plus this drunk dude, that kept repeating the same thing over and over again in cantonese.scary and weird. really felt like bashing that guy up, but senior citizen, play safe man, play safe. xD


Im no racist.
but life is making me one.

every part of you is just so attracted to him,
every part of him is just so attracting to you,
that tingling sensation you feel when he's around you,
your heart skips a beat,
his existence creates that heavenly feeling.
where you just don't want to leave.
instead,
he leaves.
every part of you just wants to follow him,
but it feels like every part of him doesn't want you following.
you're confused.
you don't want to scare him away,
but you don't want to leave him alone.
just by looking at him,
you will never notice anything else around you.
hypnotized by his gaze.
you want more of him.
you want to feel him.
touch him.
love him.

does he know of your existence?
does he sneak glances at you?
does he notice you everyday like how you notice him?
you want answers.
suffocating from the mountains of questions.
why?
its growing inside of you,
the fear,
the confusion.
All you want to do now,
is to go up to him,
and say I love you.







& I just want to throw myself at him.
I don't like liking strangers.
you know so much about them,
but they don't even know your name.

I want to be happy.
I want to have fun.
I want everyday to be the best days of my life.
I want to be the one that light up all their lives.
I want to light up his life.
I want to learn how to love again,
without breaking myself into pieces.

I guess,
I'm hoping for a fairytale.

we both have 2 eyes,1nose, 1mouth,2ears.
you're not any different,
but why be such an egoistic bastard?
they say when the first road is closed,
pick the other.
I don't need your help.

this is so fucking frustrating.
my dad fucking mixed my notes and past year questions with thrash.
for those who are REALLY slow.
it fucking means.
he cleared MY fucking study table.
put everything into a big blue fucking plastic bag.
and added thrash from the fucking dustbin.
mix mix mix.
and wa la.
fucking notash.

If it was really messy, I can understand la.
but what the fuck la.
this time,
i really don't feel like picking it from the blue plastic bag.
Im just gonna photostat everything again.
OR
I'll pour everything onto the floor and pretend dono.
xD.
that sounds like a good idea. heh.

On friday, me and atie got stalked. xD , i kept forgetting to post about it. we were at the foyer, when atie suddenly asked me if is it her or is someone taking pictures of us. when i looked up, i saw this white phone camera that slid off from the edge real fast and left. pretty freaky huh? it aimed right down at us. Karma atie, karma. xD

I never did believe in anything
I couldn't hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It's just so real the way it lingers

[Chorus]
I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
When everything I have doesn't mean a thing
If it's without you

If it's a dream, don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin'
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost (forever)
(I wanna stay lost forever with you)

[2nd Verse]
No, this feeling doesn't end
It's with me everywhere I am

Hope it never goes away
It's like defying gravity
Losing all control and bein' free
And I always wanna stay

[Pre-Chorus]
I never thought that I'd let go
Long enough to fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

[Chorus]
I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
When everything I have doesn't mean a thing
If it's without you
If it's a dream, don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin'

How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost (forever)
(I wanna stay lost forever with you)

[Bridge]

Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery (I like the mystery)
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't looking
You found me

this is for my dear friend, shak.

the way he looks into my eyes,
without blinking.
I want that moment to last forever.

he was within reach of me today,
I craved to touch his skin,
to feel him,
to love him.
it felt like he was everything.
I know he's not.
but everything felt so perfect.
I hope,
I'm not making another mistake.
i moved on.
I hope,
Its not too late to start over.
I hope,
that he wont regret letting me go.


its a different "he" now.

I just Love this he.
he has this really adorable laugh,
that just makes me want to bear hug him.
HE WAS WITHIN REACH.
I would've pounced on him,
if atie wasn't there to control.
so dreamy.
the feeling,
of floating in zero gravity.
you"ll just want to hold him,
and never let go.
I've thought of the consequences,
of what I have to sacrifice.

But if its a mistake,
its a risk worth taking.



& I wish I could Love you, like how i'll always do.