I wish I could Love You

Friday, November 27, 2009

college-less for 3 days.

I'm gonna miss so much fun.

I'm gonna miss my HOMMIES. :)

3 days, 27 hours.

alot of things can happen in between.

alot of things that I'm going to miss.

at least I still can dota there, xD ,
brother is bringing laptop. :)

watched movie with the melaka peeps + guardian angel ( i still try to figure WHY i call you that ) today, and met up with Zi hang for lunch. gave GA 51 miss calls before succeeding in waking that shit head up.

still managed to catch the movie without missing a thing.

I'M REALLY GONNA MISS YOU GUYS!!! and jia hoe. especially after being dared to do something stupid in the audi. :)

i love you!

promise me,

don't do anything reckless while I'm gone.

HAHA. typical edward.

but I think i'll dedicate it to SHER RIN. XD

drive safe.

and oh yeah. KENNETH SHAK,

i hope u survive. HAHA.

peeps dun miss me too much.

don't cry if you see something that reminds you of me.

don't hope for barley when i get back.

I WANT HUGS peepal!. :)

& is it I miss you,

or I missed you?

Jamie Lee
23:10

okay, twilight fans, this may seem a little harsh, but people, you gotta be honest to yourself. What is New moon about? WHAT is the story line?

I am not a twilight book fan, or a twilight fan, but I am team Jacob fan. and I think edward and bella make a great couple.

but to tell you the truth, I THINK the show was really disappointing.

don't bring your below 10 years old kids to watch it, nor bring your parents or grandparents to watch it, its really not their type of movie.

If you're a jacob fan, there are many half naked jacob scenes that you'd most probably drool over * i know I did. :) and hell it sucked watching him getting rejected by bella, and i guess that was the only part i felt like crying.

and if you didnt notice, Edwards way of talking to bella sounds like some playboy trying to cheat a girl. NO OFFENCE.

its weird, love at first sight yeah, but a little too serious nO?

its abit too much of FANTASY.

they influence people into thinking this kinda crap exists.

not the show is crap, but the things edward say.

girls would end up hoping for some guy to say it to them.

well, at least HOT half naked men exist. :)

or HOT taylor lautner moments.

storyline : Bella LOVES edward. she's DYING to be a vampire so edward wont leave her when she gets all wrinkled up.

funny, she hasnt met any other men but she already wants to live with edward FOREVER ( few thousand years maybe? ) . I try to remind myself that its just a SHOW, nothing more. but out of all the love stories, this is just abit TOO MUCH. Don't get me wrong, i don't HATE the show, its just not my cup of tea. :)

but,

I LOVE YOU TAYLOR LAUTNER.

i wana bite ur ass. :)

5 days I'll be gone,

27 hours I will miss.

thursday I'll be home,

hopefully in one piece.

HAHAHA. shit. so random.

& if it takes me a whole lifetime to tell you I care,

I will.

Jamie Lee
21:34

Thursday, November 26, 2009

sometimes I have to force my dog to take pictures with me. :)
she's camera shy. really

SHTLM cooking, by ROY. :)
served by STEPH. :)
it was awesome.

i've been busy with moral and malaysian studies, 2 bitching subjects, taking up 9 hours of my 24 hours a day. i have exactly NO memory about what happens in class, except, slumber, left 4 dead, dota, and condition zero. and maybe a little bit of NFS. :) if i ever have a laptop with all those games there, I'd die. die playing all the games. but malaysian studies has grown to become a very very awesome class. :) sadly i have to leave this country for 5 days, and miss 3 days of classes. :( im going to miss the whole pile of friends. alot, everyday, I have lunch with the same group of people that have unlimited stories to tell, and an awesome friend that drives us around.
KEEP ME POSTED WITH the happenings while I'm gone, and I hope someone can be as retarded as me, if not no ones gonna entertain ya'all. :)

left 4 dead, over and over again.

of people signing my BACK.

disappearing ink. xD few months ago, i wrote with this purple pen.
it looked like this.

bout 2 months later,
I have no idea what shit happened,
it disappeared.
so mysterious.

stop hiding secrets,
stop telling lies,
stop trying to make me believe in something,
that I already know.
the more mysterious you are,
the more I want to know you.
a puzzle that I am dying to solve.
you.
you inspired me. :)

& its so weird.

Jamie Lee
22:59

Monday, November 23, 2009

crazy magic guy. freaking awesome. just spend little time to wait for it to load. :)

& it takes 2 to be 1 .

Jamie Lee
19:19

Sunday, November 22, 2009

heads been spinning alot lately.
words cannot describe whats been felt.
i miss you.
but I'm learning NOT to.
:)

The broken clock is a comfort,

it helps me sleep tonight

Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts

I am damaged at best,

like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart,

I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain, there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on,

I'm holdin' on,

I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes

That are looking for a purpose,

they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart,

I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain (in the pain), is there healing

In your name (in your name)

I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day

Just to see what you throw my way

And I'm hanging on to the words you say

You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone

I may have lost my way now,

haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

with a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain(In the pain)

there is healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you.

those words, they mean alot.

& wish you were here.

Jamie Lee
22:01

Saturday, November 21, 2009

im getting fat. :(

found this in someones FB album. xD
effin cool kan?

AZIE LOOKS DAMN EPIC IN THIS PIC LA. :)
i like. :D

I'm always trying to figure out why.
but at least I know,
loving you wouldn't be as hard as leaving you.

& I wish I could love you,
once more.

Jamie Lee
23:48

Friday, November 20, 2009

YESTERDAY was awards night.

i am yet to figure out the purpose of the night besides eating and photo session-ing.

it was an awesome night.

headed to Laundry after that for a BOOZE.

I can't consider a MANGO TINI booze,

no tipsy, no red face, no headache.

BOO.

I amat bersuka akan picture ini. :)

melaka gang + J.Hoe + KP + Az + zi hang.

no idea why he was pointing.

UMAH. :) anyway. thats not my point, look to the left, you'll see some dude in batik, CHINESE dude, and HE'S WEARING SUNGLASSES.

im sorry to whoever that knows this guy,

but, its damn funny.epic shits.

I must've shined so bright that night he needed sunglasses to block the light i was giving out.

well, thats just a random THOUGHT.

he's not blind by the way.

it was dark, and i still don't know why. xD

anyway,before exams, I just had to cook, a way to destress, and trust me , its not some rack of lamb or some rib eye red wine steak you see in restaurants, its just normal shits like maggie mee mamak and fried rice. :) retards can't cook well.

HANA MAKI?

HAHA!

this is from pizzaria.

lasagna. :)

TODAY, was an awesome day.
JIAHOE, came to sunway coll to pick me and loo up

ZOO NEGARA.
i was rather disappointed with the zoo keeping.

apparently,
tourist, locals,

they feed inappropriate food to the animals.

the signboards state clearly that NO FEEDING is permitted.

If england you no understand,

understand wat?

whats worst?

the dirty polluted lake environment?

or the fact that you see people feeding ANYTHING to the animals?

i saw one of the otters cousin,

that little thing,

was holding on to the cage.

reluctant to slide back down into its filthy cage.

the look in its eyes.

all I could do was to stand and watch ,

as it slowly starts to let go.

and go back to where it doesn't belong.

that filthy cage.

by the way,

I saw A swan in the lake.

feather covered in BROWN dunno-what-shit-water.

and yeah.

i saw many COWS and GOATS.

and monkeys, that may have been caught from my hometown.

I am very disappointed.

VERY disappointed with Zoo negara.

what happened to money given for maintainence?

whats going to happen to the animals?

about 10 years ago,

there was about 15 penguins.

now, there was only 2.

2 lonesome penguins.

stoning.

is it me or are the penguins dying a little TOO fast?

tourist visit our zoo thinking we have cute little orang utans ( oh-rang U-tans ) in it,

they walk in being greeted with OLD,sleepy, bored, stoning orang utans.
the zoo that could've been malaysia's pride and glory,

long gone, or maybe never was.

anyway, spotted my mom while touring. :) it was actually EATING, but, I pointed my camera right infront of its face. xD . well, I honestly hope you survive until the next time I visit Zoo negara. I really do.

& I'll always miss you.

you know that.

Jamie Lee
23:18

Thursday, November 19, 2009

happy 600th post ol blog.

I couldn't hear the clothes calling my name, I just, couldn't feel the need to shop. it sucks, when you're loaded and ready but nothing attracts you. I ended up being some guy fashionist, whatever you see ming hoe, shak and jordan wear tonight, would be the tiny influences I had on them. and let me just tell you this, shopping with sher rin and jordan, is CRAZY. come to think of it, crazy is far from how they shop. I have to run to the ATM to withdraw cash for jordan, and S-R has a piece of A4 sized paper with her dads signature all over it because she was learning how to sign. SHIT, and I thought parents had control on their credit cards. no big deal.

I bought something anyway. I'm QUITE satisfied with it, but I'mnot sure if its FORMAL, Dressy, Clubber like, casual, semi-formal or what . . I CAN'T TELL THE DIFFERENCE anymore. its frustrating, but hell, i'll just go with whatever I have la.

p.s : I hate having no camera.

after so many outings, I still didn't manage to have a quick stop at Racks. damn I miss pool.

& i am just like you.

Jamie Lee
14:50

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

i fucking hate them passport making ppl. not ALL of them. but some.

today , i had my passport done. I had to cut off my shopping trip to pick up that piece of shit.

went to the counter, the lady looked at me and asked : " ade bawa anak?"

WAT THE FUCK.

DO I LOOK LIKE I HAVE ONE?

i replied : no, here to collect my own.

and guess what bullshit she said?

:" are you 18+? "

5 mins ago i looked as if I was 50 to her, now im > 18 ? weird. but anyway, she didnt let me take my passport anyway. she said I needed parental guidance or some shit. I guess I looked like I was gonna eat my passport, or stuff it up navins ass. what am i? 3? IM FREAKING 17! I know its a law, or a rule, or whatever shit. WHO's GONNA CATCH YOU FOR IT? well, may God always be with you lady. aaaaargh. and during lunch, they're going on lunch too, i mean, they dont have reserved people to take over. how awesome, so tmr, im not gonna get my long sleep because of this shit. sigh.

and i havent found my dress.

and i found awesome shoes i wana buy.

and i wana have a very nice meal.

and i just dont wana go for the awards night.

and i need rest.

and i've been to 2 malls and couldnt find a thing.

and i dun wana get robbed tmr.

and im tired.

and i need more sleep tmr but i cant.

and i miss him, so much.

& when you thought it was all over,

everything just started.

Jamie Lee
21:56

Saturday, November 14, 2009

this is by far the scariest picture of myself.
really.

life would go on as it is.

with, or without ausmat
with , or without you.

i am pathetic.

i am not ready for my future.
I miss the past.

I AM FREE! but not exactly free for life.
wait till the time comes.

i'll start stressing again.

would you stay if I asked you to?

& im not ready for anything,

just a game of pool.

Jamie Lee
12:37

Friday, November 13, 2009

I'm back.
this is the end of ausmat.
20k for 5 WATP papers.
will come back with more stories.
and Ms. LOO, i didnt post about her on the things i will miss, because I'll be seeing more of her. :) and i want a picture taken WITH her. after so long. not a pic of us . tsk tsk. :)

i love all ausmatians. :)
do well for ur subjects!!!

Jamie Lee
21:50

Sunday, November 8, 2009

i saw birds flying around when i was Berjogging-an today. yeah, birds FLY. tiny birds, a lot of them. as the view was getting even better, a HUGE burung gagak landed on the tree. wtf. potong to the max. AND I NOW HAVE A CAST ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT. no no, the crow didn't attack me, my foot had a corn. nonono! not a SWEETCORN CORN. its a lump of dead skin cells that forms because too much pressure was exerted on it.sigh, my poor left feet.

and

HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD?

some person wants to sue FB because ppl keep stealing crops from her BARNBUDDY. pffffft. that, i think is the joke of the year.
what happens when you steal crops from someone elses barn?

you get sued!!!!! HAHAHA.
-.- , pathetic not?
if she wins the case, I'd pay the lawyer 1 million to sue my friends for spamming my inbox,
ah! my finger broke because i had to keep deleting emails! then buy myself an island, and invite my friends over for a party. :)

YOU WISH LA.

im guessing this is the new ERA, like, make up the dumbest excuses to sue someone. the new form of SUE. I'm gonna sue you because i had diarrhea while having lunch with you. I'm gonna sue you because you didn't reply my messages ( i'd be rich ).I'm gonna sue you because you said you were coming at 10a.m but you came at 10.01 a.m.

what else can be sued?

i mean,
what else CAN'T be sued?

reminiscence,
i just said your name out loud.
& I'm trying to figure out why.

Jamie Lee
00:01

Friday, November 6, 2009

i love you chemistry. :)

Jamie Lee
20:36

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

i am so disappointed in bio . sigh.

saw this "little" guy in the drain, but I didn't want to touch it.

no, im not spoiled,i'm just a little freaked out,

by how he GOT THERE DUH. :)

bio. sigh.

LETS LEAVE THAT ALL BEHIND. its over. kapish. gone. disappear. xD

i love chem. :) chem don't let me down.

ANYWAY! i really couldn't study today. I was.. really distracted, I walked all the way upstairs to get my highlighter and came back down not knowing I already went up to get my highlighter. and I told Shak about it. xD anddddddd since im already so distracted, some past few WEEKS pictures.

went to giant with momsy, and we saw this really really adorable pencil box and yeah I bought one. :) its a SHEEEEEP . gwad. who . doesn't . buy. furry. sheep. pencil .box . WHO!

had a weird convo in the car anyway,

Mom : I think I should buy one too. . (refering to pencil case.)

me : yeah, there's a hippo one, but that, kinda looks like you.

Mom : my daughter is so mean. (x2)

I was kinda confused whether she was talking to ME,

or was there someone else in the car.

and yes, I feel very stupid typing out a convo knowing that its not the EXACT words. xD

for those that require magnifying glass to see.

I'll just make it easier for you. the picture, is a VILLI, something we have in our intestines, as you can see, my good friend alyssaaaa siew wrote "have more PALLISADE MESOPHYLL" . and the one below, it says : HAVE MORE CHLOROPLAST.

I .. . .. love you al. :D don't hate me. xD

DAD-MADE siew yoke. :)

PRINCESS! :3

college made me realize that, there's no such thing as KESIAN marks.

college made me realize that , assignments are a bitch.

college made me realize that, exams are to test students about things we NEVER knew.

college made me realize that, retards like me multiply really fast.

college made me realize that, suprise bday parties are like growing mushrooms after rain.

college made me realize that, nasi lemaks are some peoples everyday must haves.

college made me realize that, I should really start driving soon.

college made me realize that, guys with long hair aren't gay.

college made me realize that, RM10 reload is of no value. xD

college made me realize that, I've spent too much on milo , yet i don't feel "sihat dan kuat" .

college made me realize that, benjamin isn't the smartest guy on earth.

college made me realize that, nerds make really awesome friends.

college made me realize that, life can be even more unfair than it already is.

*couldn't edit, using laptop. some words that happen to be invisible actually ISN'T invisible.

& its not over until I say it is.IWICLY

Jamie Lee
22:52