I wish I could Love You

Sunday, May 30, 2010

i feel pathetic knowing how pathetic you are.
you are PATHETIC.
and it makes me pathetic to even care.

i saw what I never want to see.
I read what i never thought i'll read.
and i cant help to imagine you going back to her.

anyone.

anyone but her.

"I want to be a toilet bowl in my next life.

and when shit comes,

I'll be able to flush them all away."

quote Jamie Lee.

no. no jokes here.

& what have I become?

Jamie Lee
15:34

im starting to hate it.

not because of that, im not sure of what anymore.

im a girl.

i can sense things happening around me.

some predictions may be uncertain,

dont get me wrong.

its just that boundary that was bound to be crossed.

What am I to you?

I'll never understand that.

if I fall apart now, whos going to save me?

I became a monster.

a cute monster. (:

& if you love me,

its your last chance to relight the candles.

I can't wait to forget you.

Jamie Lee
01:24

Friday, May 28, 2010

still here . xD
if you know what i mean. (:

Jamie Lee
02:03

Monday, May 24, 2010

are you feeling guilty?

of what you've done?

of what I never seem to forget.

are you being reminded of it?

thats why we don't talk?

i dont hate you for it. i really dont.

I miss the spontaneous talks.
I miss our randomsity.
I miss how everything was back as it was.

Pathetic-ly, imissyou.

you killed part of me.

but another part of me still loves you.

& after all this, let it be gone.

Jamie Lee
22:51

Saturday, May 22, 2010

im still

trying to leave everything behind.

I really wished everything would go back to normal.

i really do.

& its as if I don't exist.

Jamie Lee
18:26

Thursday, May 20, 2010

i watched justin bieber on american idol today!! well i THINK it was him. too small to be spotted on stage.

that reminds me. justing bieber twitted that kim kardashian was his girlfriend or something? yeah. Im not sure if its true. but hey, i bet kim kardashian's boobs are bigger than his head. seriously. enough shit bieber?

and about that 3 year old crying for him. i told you he was 7! is bieber lying about his age? flirting with a 3 year old then making her cry?? I honestly CAN't watch any justin bieber videos la. not even baby or one less lonely girl or some other songs. it kills my brain cells 1 million at a time. his voice. dude. the first time i heard baby on the radio, i thought it was katy perry/pink , never knew it'd be a DUDE. and i never knew USHER would be his manager!?!!!!! I know there's a gazillion female fans plotting some big fat murder behind my back now, but hey. i admit, in reareeety justin bieber is VERRYY VERRRYY VERRRY popular.

if he ever decides to change sex. I'd vote yes. (:
btw. the original picture of kim kardashian is effin hot!! ;)

& the long waited desire.

Jamie Lee
20:06

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I finally realize how I mean nothing to you.

i am slowly seeing the light.

hearn. sher-rin. sim. ben. (:

im sorry.

but this is as far as I can go, for now.

barriers.

blame it on the barriers.

& at least show that you care.

Jamie Lee
10:32

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

i left my blogger on in new post since 8 nightish. took me THAT long to realize that no matter how hard i try , those words just can't seem to construct itself. (:

im fine.

I guess.

I just miss you a little.

I think.

& tell me why.

Jamie Lee
19:36

Sunday, May 16, 2010

The past, The present & everything else in between. (:

FLASHBACKS ! Penang '09 .