Saturday, February 27, 2010
when you were a kid, it was so easy to pick something you wanted to be. When I wanted to be a doctor, all daddy needed to do was to buy me a toy stethoscope. I'll run around trying to listen to heartbeats on the tv, teddy bears, myself, and PRETEND i hear something. but daddy never bought me a stethoscope, because I never asked for one.
But i was always given
fake food and have
fake tea and
fake cooking sessions. And hell yeah i was a great chef!! Every year you get different class form teachers and every year they ask you the same thing, what is your dream job, what do you want to be when you grow up? Were you always keen on what you wanted to be? or what you were always pretending to be when you were younger then?
I don't usually expect big and expensive things. just common things such as clothes and stuff. Do you always get what you want? To be honest with you, I normally do.
Until now.
but I have finally come to accept that, if you can't get what you want, always be satisfied with what you have. I guess depressed just isn't my thang yo~! no matter how much I hate what I'm stuck with for 3 years now, I still have to do it. there's the difference between T-junctions and dead ends. 1, T-junctions give you 2 choices, dead ends leaves you with, no choice. I'm not at a dead end, I am stuck in a roundabout, I don't know if I should turn at 3 o clock, 6 o clock, 10 o clock, 5 o clock or 12 o clock, or just get ONTO it.
what would your life become if everything went smoothly as planned? no challenges, no problems, no mistakes. just a perfect life. then you are no different then those useless homeless people that don't give a shit about their life. NO OFFENCE though. :) I've read enough horoscopes and personality quiz thingy and i'm stunned by what they say about me. which is 90% true.
you're living on a rocky road dear buddies, be ready for some big fat rock/bumpy road infront of you. you can't be happy unless you start thinking stupidly.Don't get stunned by problems and challenges. SOLVE them.
& love is just a SMALL part of what you'll be facing as long as you're still breathing.
word of advice though. make sure you have some friends with you all the time. they can be really efficient sand bags. :) punch 'em. btw, you're not fat unless I say you are. did I make you feel any better? you're fat, and ugly and saggy and disgusting and you should die now. Does it really matter what people say about you?
& I love you just the way you are. :) thank you.
Jamie Lee
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