okay. i am taking a gazillion deep breaths right now.

I finally know what true/real/serious/honest/best friends are like. they don't abandon you halfway, they don't keep secrets from you, they share their problems with you, they show you their true self, they'll know when you're down & they'll pick you up. they cry with you, they smile with you, and they laugh LOUDER than you. ;) its so nice listening to all the good stuff about friends. thank LORD i have some real ones. mine aren't perfect, but at least when all of their personalities add together, it creates this beautiful circle of friendship.and im really really very grateful. to be honest with you, i am pissed.



people change, we ALL know that. but sometimes you're not quite sure if YOU're the one changing or is it them. now im sure, that its them. not me. I don't understand how your best friend can suddenly become this bastard stranger that pretends you don't exist. some of them are nothing but pretenders, they make me sick. I'm sick and tired of friends that talk more than taking action. they tell you this this that that and all they do is this. and when you get the worst ones, the 2-faced. they think I'm stupid, infront they're all smiley happy, but behind, they stab non stop. Now I thank my brother for teaching me how to be selfish, with money I mean. So i dont go around spending money FOR people rather than myself. I AM NOT RETARDED.