Sunday, January 17, 2010
i am up at 3 a.m.
thinking things over.
everything seems peaceful now,
but I don't feel good at all.
I feel
parted,
with everyone.
especially those close to me.
those that mean alot more than friends to me.
those that played a bigger role in my life.
I feel
pissed,
that I'm actually having selfish thoughts.
of wanting to control his life.
that there's nothing I can do if a decision is reached.
that I'm still able to laugh,
when he's in so much pain.
what does life mean to me now?
everything seems to be falling apart behind me,
while I'm upfront picking the pieces.
I'm starting to feel the emptiness.
but what can I fill it with?
The mere touch of the wind made my heart stir again
The way you laughed–just a distant memory
I once saw in your eyes myself gazing back
If only I still had the chance
I’d tell you all I long to say
And if by chance you know I’d
Never meant to turn you away
Would you decide to come back to me?
And if you think it is not too much to ask
Think about me just from time to time
just someting random.xD
there's just so many things I want to say to them.
but I haven't got the time to.
I haven't even thought of how I was going to say it.
but i want to.
because they mean alot to me.
because I don't want them to forget me.
because I know I'll miss them to bits.
and because
i love them.
& there's just too many goodbyes.
Jamie Lee
02:54
