when hope whispered into my ear,

i felt that a miracle would take place.
then i realized, I wasn't home.

I wasn't where i was supposed to be.
i was , in denial.

not willing to accept what i knew was meant to be.

i couldn't stop thinking about what Hope said to me.
because it hurts. it hurts knowing what you wished to happen was something that was never going to.

something, close to nothing.

at least i still feel the pain,

that big hole through my chest.

at least i still felt alive.

at least i was in control.

yesterday, i manage to solve uni stuff with my dad. sigh. i broke his heart. I know it. But i was left with no other choice. im sorry I refused to go form 6. I promis i'll make u proud daddy. its so so so hard for me to say this. I really don't want to spend so much of your hard earned cash. but thank you. i love you!! :) I promise i'll never fail you.

its alright to be lost

everything is gonna be just fine.

what a lie.

just to see the old you again.

Jamie Lee
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