stay tuned. :D

i suddenly felt the urge to say this.
whoever that thinks i'm talking about you.
you can either choose to believe that im NOT talking about you.
or take this whole shit like a man/woman/ gay/ wtv.

the King of Pop has left the building.






Rest in Peace.
psst.
I still have your thriller & heal the world song in my phone! :D

because I really do.
I cannot stand the sight of slaughtering animals,
no I'm not vegetarian.
Even so,
I won't be eating DOG meat. Pork is the furthest I go.
there's always a limit to something,
SLAUGHTERING dogs is way way past my limit assholes.
not only china is doing this, even india.
while some other country slaughter sea lions, whales as a tradition.
like WHAT THE FUCK?
can't they get traditions where they dress around in retarded suites and dance?
okay wait. maybe not retarded.
BUT AT LEAST DON'T KILL ANYTHING. ish
honestly speaking,
fuck you people who eat dog meat.
and i missed out those people that kidnap turtle eggs.
scrolling up and scrolling back down is killing me.
please excuse me for being rude.

they might get nightmares.

Transformers 2 was AWESOME!!!!!!!!






I don't know how to describe this, but even the people in there CLAPPED. its not like the director was there kan? BUT IT WAS TOTALLY SIBEH AWESOME!!
there were lotsa new bots, and new people, and new bad guys. but yeah. AWESOME NESS!!! :D

I wana take a ride on your discostick"

my dad still hasnt said anything about my penang trip yet.
he hardly ever says yes, but he doesnt say no either. so how in the world am i supposed to know. by the way, im 17 ! and i've never been on a trip with my friends. remember when he said he didn't trust my friends driving? yeah. they're not, we're taking a bus there. there's also free accommodation. NOT ONLY THAT, he did say something about "guys must never be more than girls" , yeah. its just nice. 3 guys 3 girls. he asked for the address and the list of people going, and yeah. i gave all the information to him, even their numbers. I'm getting really sick of this. the process of getting permission is hell, not that i Don't want to. its just they're over protective, they think I don't know how dangerous it is out there, and they seem so pessimistic.its like, when I'm not under their watchful eyes, somethings gonna happen, and that I can't think for myself and about the consequences i'll have to face. its like, Im stupid and immature.

it definitely felt like hell for me today.
a mixture of chemistry and economics.
3 hours each.
non stop brain storming.
It felt like hell.
There was this point where my brain refused to think.
and all the memorized stuff just left my brain.
especially during economics.
Costs of EU rate.
I just wrote the whole damn thing yesterday night.
re-read it the next morning.
during the paper.
it just blanked my mind.
managed to write some shit down.
after exam, took a look at my notes
every single information came back into my head.
but it was just too late now no?
I could've written it down, I could've thought more, I could've done better.
All the could have's, I don't believe in that.
not that I'm trying to make myself feel better.
but i REALLY did the best I could.
and If i were to pressure my brain any further,
I think i'd end up brain dead.
i was so stressed.
so i burst out laughing at the end of econs.
And guess what happened on my way back.
bottle leakage!
graphic calculator DROWNED.
tmr i have applics.

want me to repeat that shit?



& we're still running on the same pace.
Addiction.it spells you.

Rules:
1. Answer the questions as honestly as possible.
2. Post this as "Did That Happen To You?"
3. Tag 10 friends.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have Fun!!!

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
- smack the hell outta it!! :D

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
- blast the room with the music and sing at the top of my lungs.

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line?
-hey baby, looking Hwat today! :D:D no la. im too shy to . :S

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
- too bad. :)

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
- haha. laugh THEN feel the pain.

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework
- copy someone elses one on the next day?

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
- stuff the first thing i see into my mouth as an excuse of not being able to talk!! XDXD

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
-put on some clean panties. :D

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
- must be the OPPOSITE quiz.

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
- Would you belive me if i said no?

11.(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
- i WOULD say no. :D

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
Hot guy- does he have a girlfriend?
Hot girl- phew! she finally noticed I look better than her! :D:D

Im not gonna tag anyone ...
BECAUSE ITS BLOODY EE FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
that doesnt mean i can't tag anyone,
just that,
I just don't want to bloody tag anyone.
ah. the frustration.

and then it hit me,
twice in less than a month.
that hollow feeling.
the one where you'd feel so alone,
the thoughts where no one cared kept reappearing.
If you were to concentrate any harder,
it would go away.
but If you tried to avoid,
it'd all come back to you.
I think I'm not making any sense.
i THINK i feel sad.
but I just don't think sad is the right word now.
i feel really .. distracted.
things keep popping into my head when I'm supposed to be concentrating.
I THINK i feel nervous.
I can't stuff anymore knowledge into my head.
even if I read out loud, I can't seem to absorb anything.
i THINK i feel scared.
EE may just be the most important shit in my life,
and if I screwed up,
i Screw up.
i cant fly all the way to Oz and bribe the examiner.
I still love adam lambert more,
that was rather random no?
I just one to say this one thing over and over again.
i just DON"T KNOW LA.
i don't know anything anymore.
I don't really know what friends are anymore.
what are friends?who are they? what are they willing to sacrifice for you?
i suddenly felt so ditched.
like there's no one there.
i get so annoyed when I'm asking someone if they wana hang out,
and they'll go
im not INDIRECTLY shooting people.
but yeah. does it really matter who's going?
its okay if I said WE'RE going bla bla , wana join us? and you ask who's going.
but yeah. screw this.
I better continue with my econs. IF i can.

some random names popped into my head.
Erik. Atie. Al. Sher-rin. Ian. jia Hoe. KP. Azhie.
once again. I don't know why.

& I feel ABC inside me. i meant. MIXED feelings. :D

my holidays are a screw up.
Dad says air asia promotions are over,


I wanted to go Penang since Azhie's got a place for us to stay,
Wanted to go Melaka for a day trip,
same excuse.

i know i know. there must be a reason why I'm stil living in this sacred house.
and I'm a pro at anger management, not only that, I can resist strong rejection .
yeah. and

i am on Cloud 0 right now and i'd love to bash up anyone in my way.
and oh, i've got a new vehicle in my house. so , im supposed to study like fuck to get a scholarship so i won't cause a burden to my family. scholarship, my percentage its like fucking 70++ only and scholars are like 90++. yeah. just stress me up ayte. .fuck tup. yeah. KP i know, chilla chilla. CHILLING. i really am trying really hard. apparently im not study material. and im not perfect. and im just everything NOT what they want me to be. its just. im not a screw up. but im not perfect.im trying really hard. really really hard.

this is so frustrating.

with love,

me.

had murni yesterday and now im down with a flu.


well. its gonna be two hectic weeks for me while the others are having holiday.
why ausmat?
why not?
I really can't wait for MY holidays to come.
thank God I'm not going through this alone.


& it just hurts to see you leave without looking back.