Be a little more considerate and at least STOP smoking for the day.
If you don't want to save yourself, at least save your country.



& when you think its gonna turn out like what you thought,
it doesn't,
then you fall apart.

the distance is just too far off.
I love seeing you everyday,
far away.
but rather, satisfying.
Even when I try not to bump into you,
i still do.
its just something I can't understand.
although you seem friendly enough.
I can't seem to bring myself to it,
to understand you,
to even look you in the eye.
to speak something more than a Hi.
I want to.

im not in love,
im not FALLING in love.
its just temptations.
you set off the temptations in me.

Next week. chem Topic test 2. *WTF* , gonna teach Al equilibrium. :D
ANYWAY!


i've had a stress week. some rather unhappy stuff happened, but knowing me. shit happens real fast, and im good at forgetting and forgiving things and people. AND, i found this new way to cheer myself up. shhhhHhHhHH. secret. :D:D. k la, i'll just admit it now. im happy. i destressed myself. and i just wana keep babbling about nothing.

Stress is starting to grow a lump in my head.
yeah. if that made sense.XD

Adam may have lost,

but he'll always be the winner to me.

I hate the fact that you're 8 years old,
knowing the time we have left together is just too short.
I hate the way you scratch so much your skin goes red,
and I can't do anything about it.
i've tried medication, different shampoo and chinese medicine.
yet nothing seems to be working.


I hate knowing that I have to spend so much more time on studies than with you.
since You've got no friends other than me.
Although I hate it when you poop on the grass when You're not supposed to,
but I tend to tolerate because I haven't been giving you much of attention.


I miss the times when we sit on the bench and talk,
you don't understand but you pretend to listen.
and at times you'll just fall asleep listening.


I know that you're still here,
and You'd be ready whenever I needed someone to talk to,
but PLEASE,
don't leave me at a time like this ,

I promised the pictures but its not all. need to upload from the huge camera. :D.
time for some college stuffs.














everythings crammed up in my head,
I feel like there's no space to breathe.
its not like I have a choice.
I can't get myself out of it.
Might as well.

I havent had time to post up what happened last week, so yeah. gonna keep this short. ASH, Navin, Sher-rin & I decided to play a prank on Kunalan. eh? wait. i mean ASH SUGGESTED that we play a prank on kunalan. soooo, we left a note on his car, saying " I heard about Umah, Stay away from her" and left a number so he could call and "settle" things. XD.

the next day, kuna told ash that someone left a note on his car. he even brought his spanner *some thing used to unlock tyre screw and blah's* so he could "settle" things with the dude. pffffffttt.. then ash came and told us which made sher-rin laughed really really really really really laughed. lol. and there goes another week in college. oh shyt. left my books in ash's car!!!




I KNOW I HAVENT BEEN UPDATING!!!! celebrated daddy's and aunts bday yesterday!! i WILL post up the pictures tmr~!!! i have exams coming. oh em g LAAAAAAAA!! yeah. get that. bloody short forms.






& I will keep lying to myself, because I know the truth will hurt me.

It feels like i'm standing 10miles away from them,
where the distance stays the same.
somehow people just don't notice the difference.
why does it always hit me?
they say " there's always rainbow after rain "
what they don't know is,
there might be FLOOD after rain.
and i usually get the floods.
wait,
its not making sense huh?
that mixed feeling I have right now,
its screwing everything up.
exam stress, is making it worse.


I misunderstood what I misunderstood.
that makes it even harder for me to understand things.

I wana dedicate *lol?* this to a someone, who's been having troubles these days.
I just want you to know that,
Don't keep everything inside you,
after bearing with all the pain you went through,
by the look in your eyes.
I could feel it,
HONESTLY,
its just unlike you to NOT be like you.
And i know it when you're you.
If you'd feel better having someone to rely one,
Miss call me and I'll ring you up.

....

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...
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i REALLY will la.
...
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Don't trust me la now!?!?!?


XD

I will ALWAYS be there for you,
and please!!!
don't keep all the pain to yourself.
If I can't give any better advice,
at least i'll be the BEST listener.
reeee-lack la! :D

I really have to start managing my time during exams,
I MUST NOT HAVE EXTRA TIME DURING EXAMS.
bloody hell la, whenever i REcheck my questions,
have doubts,
itchy hand go erase,
change answer,
k la, maybe changing answer is a good thing.
BUT CHANGING TO A WRONG ANSWER ISN't.
I SHOULD NOT HAVE EXTRA TIME DURING EXAMS!!
i regret, like mad, to erase the "g" and put in a "kg".
it just doesnt make sense la..
using 8kg of baking soda. Right?

it was a SUPER SUPER tiring day yesterday,Played pool with ash, atie, & leon, foos with leon, stuck in the jam for 2 hours.. non stop phone calls from everyone. . and yeah. park at some illegal non-parking lot. what else? walked ALL the way to 5th floor ou2 parking lot, just to realize that the car was parked at ou1. .jia hoe ar jia hoeee... dun live in the tempurung laaaaaa!!!. lol . overall, the brownie was the best! XD

anyway, thank YOU :

Kok Ping , for picking me up from A.C to micheals then to ou.
Sher-Rin, Mun, Steph & Nura , for the company.
Sher-rin & steph , For the haagen daez ss moments.
Jia Hoe , the EXERCISE we had together in ou, and for driving me home SAFELY.
Mun & steph , for following behind and guiding jia hoe the road home, :)
Atie, Ash & leon , for pool-ing & foos.

& All the others that went. :D

you have NO IDEA how annoying the phone calls were.

i have to like, get on like, the stage, in like the multi-purpose hall to like, take a chee-pluck scholarship!? like WAT!????

*more pics from Mich Seck's blog. :D *

DAD's Sambal Making process. :D

Dad's favourite fried pork-skin./fats.

and Somehow i just cant stay still.

MUST . concentrate. on. studies.

MUST.

& I don't know what makes me feel this way.