I wish I could Love You

Saturday, February 28, 2009

people can change,
in a blink of an eye.
One minute, They're supporting you,
one minute, they're the ones tearing you down.
How did that happen so fast?

like i said, a blink of an eye.

money is the number one priority now,
I have learnt that I should not discuss about college,
fees, courses, and the fact that i love the wildlife.
Its as if they already prepared andswers to my questions.
They don't defend,
they fight.

And this, just sucks.
big time.

Jamie Lee
20:17

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Alex Evans, BNTM cycle 4 winner.

:D ,

also a 5'7

170cm , runway models. :D

went for life check just now. :D . i didnt get my urine checked, coz, i didn't wana get pee all over my hands . (*hello!?!? i can't aim ayte?) . I have qualified myself to be a runway model, LOL, weird huh? im 5'7, which is 170cm a.k.a 1.7M. haha, so happy la me.

although i dun plan to be a model, but hey? my height la. :D

during the counsel, i was asked to gain 4-5kg in order to be "just right". -.- , I ain't gonna do that yawww.. :D . For now, let me enjoy the pleasure of being 170cm. It won't last for long, expecially times like this.

gradually,

I've changed.

I've gone through my worst days,

and it keeps coming.

All I can do is to,

leave out all the rest.

Life is like a lighted candle,

my parents are the wind,

and you are my fire.

Jamie Lee
10:36

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

my parents don't know me anymore,
thats what they said,
they asked me to grow up.
I've given up trying to fight for what I wanted.
They told me to pick an alternative,
so far,
they haven't accepted any of it.
told me to wake up,
this is reality.
I think they should just admit they're pushing me right to the edge.
and when I fall,
I fall.

Jamie Lee
20:14

Monday, February 23, 2009

well, at least there's something to laugh about.
:D

IM SO FRUSTRATED!!! ish, Mysoju.com is completely pissing me off. I was addicted to this korean drama and when i tried to watch the other part, it couldn't load.HOW CAN THEY JUST SUDDENLY NOT LOAD!! WHAT THE ~~FUCK~~! they really really have to fix their videos. Someone might just pass out due to their potong-ness.

I love Lee min ho. tall and gorgeous, and his voice is so so so so so so so... my type-ish.hah! his face is just gorgeous laaaa!! Hearts.

*pass out*

Jamie <3's 이민호

Jamie Lee
21:26

Sunday, February 22, 2009

he's so so incredibly good-looking.

how i felt after waking up at 9 on my very very *have always been very special sunday :

!@#$%^%$#@#$&*$%#$@

went out yesterday wit jean,Z wei, Zac, goppi, navin and yl. watched burn after reading, not a very nice show BECAUSE as we all know, in malaysia, our cinema's have a hobby of CUTTING the movie. parts where they think is inappropriate. its a kinda confusing show and thanks to brad pitt, i stayed awake. oh. and not forgetting, i was the only girl because jean had to leave early. ah-nee-way, its really hard to understand my parents demand, so i've learnt my lesson by not listening to it. XD

stupid video's lagging. ish
stupid phone cant connect to the computer. ish ish.
stupid monitor makes my view so so ugly. ish .ish. ish.

I must be dreaming too much lately. :D

Jamie Lee
21:10

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I've never heard so much hurtful words in my life
had a lecture from dad,

why science?

What job opportunity will u get?

Will u be employed?

Is it worth paying for?

It's not that I don't want to,

its that I can't afford to.

You can't go overseas for 3 years.

and there's no point in taking animal science

I felt rejected,

was it by fate or just my luck.

but like I said,

it was just a dream.

If I were to put up so much hope on that dream,

May as well feel the pain when I lose complete hope in it.

Although I searched EVERY information about zoology,

it still wasn't enough to convince my dad.

& you have no idea.

Its fine with me now,

I've woken up from that long dream I had,

being with all the wild animals,

saving them, and giving them something to live for.

Determination and commitment,

Not enough to pursue your dreams.

told my dad to unsuscribe National Geographic,

I don't want to watch it anymore.
as time pass

I guess I'll soon realize,

that dreams only exist in fairytales.

Welcome to reality.

Jamie Lee
14:10

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I think I should start selling peoples puppies. :D
so fun laaa this is.
anyway, the k810i died.Im really really unhappy with Dr. Mobiles service, and HONESTLY, I'm NEVER going back there again even if I had warranty card.
I Soo want a new phone right now, and i Soooo need money right now, and I Sooo have to start learning how to drive now, and i Sooo want to go out shopping with unlimited cash, and i Soooo want to fly to melb now, and i Soooo wana start college before I forget everything else.

wait a sec, who DOESN'T need money?

Save the last dance for me

Jamie Lee
20:46

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Zachary's puppies for sale!!! :D

2 Male , 1 Female

Breed : American Cocker Spaniel

Height: ( Approx )
Females: 14 inches.
Males: 15 inches.

Price : Rm700 - 800

Cocker Spaniels are active, friendly, lively and fun. They love to be around people and are always willing to please. They can be lazy if not exercised, but are certainly willing to go out on a walk. They are affectionate, affable, and very good with kids. They are also good with other pets. They should never be suspicious or untrustworthy, and should usually be joyful in appearance and attitude. They are gentle, merry, outgoing and loving. They do not respond well to harsh training, and should be trained with a gentle hand. They have a happy nature and fit in easily to any lifestyle.

They have long coats, thus it is advisable to send the dog for grooming.

Roughly how it'll look like if you bought one of them!! :D

For further enquiries, leave a msg at the chatbox.

Jamie Lee
13:40

Sunday, February 15, 2009

All the If only's could be added up and made into a story,
Will you let your dream go and head another direction where there's no turning back?

Or will you do what it takes to get you there?

without hurting or leaving your family in pain financially.

but with all the advised given by elders,

your mind starts to rethink it all,

whether or not it is worth what you're sacrificing.

You're tempted by the migrating malaysians to australia,

yet you cannot afford to move anywhere near them.

Scholarships, loan, part time,

its just not enough for you.

Will you give it all up and take a chance,

and spend the next 10 years paying back for your loan?

for something you really wanted to be?

and a place you really wanted to settle down at?

Its true that rich people migrate to australia,

and richer people head to higher ranked Universities.

What if you're not rich?

What if you had to apply for a loan?

without scholarships, can you make it to the top?

You understand your parents condition financially,

and you've tried pursuading them and showing how much you want to be there,

what are the efforts you wish to put in.

And its not that they don't want to,

they just can't afford to.

You're determined, you're commited,

but you just can't change a thing.

Its just a dream jamie,

nothing more.

Jamie Lee
16:12

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog or a note on Facebook with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment (”you’re it”) and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog/note, so I can see your weirdness.

1.I hope suk ting invites me to her 18th bday.! XD

2. 16 random things is too little. I'll add another 4. :D

3. (I shall not write the ones i've already written in facebook.) I am NOT a photogenic person.

4. I always wanted to pose in a Non-nude magazine. :)

5. I think I like branded goods.

6. When Im happy, I do stupid things, or lame, or weird actions.

7. futsal is frigging cool.

8. I currently have 10 pairs of footwear and im dreading for more.

9. I gained 2kg immediately after SPM.

10. My phone dies every night and resurrects itself in the morning, but today, it officially passed away.

11. screw Dr. mobile for cheating my RM180 and not doing a good job.

12. omg-osh im so funny. :)

13. I wish I wasn't living in Malaysia. honestly

14. I have phobia walking alone on the streets.

15. I would love to keep a rat in my hamster cage. :D

16. I just got my pay yesterday and am feeling really happy about it.

17. but come to think of it, if i were to convert it to aussie dollars, its like nothing.

18. Im not gonna tag anyone :)

19. I would love love love love love x100 to have a house like Zac's . :D

20. I think i've said that thrice.

I tag

No one.

Jamie Lee
13:14

Friday, February 13, 2009

I honestly honestly LOVE dogs. :)

:D im at a blog workshop!! so exciting, random and kinda fun.
posting this because I have to, so exciting!! :D * smiles like an idiot*

and its so cold here.

poor keith , stuck in melb.

Chun Kiat, first class a**hole

and its Zac's birthday!!!

Z wei's still driving,

Nam Hon loves me, so he says la.

XX SHOULD love me.

I Love you~~!!!

Jamie Lee
10:31

Thursday, February 12, 2009

some random guy called early in the morning today to KDU, this guy was either PMS-ing or he was trying to make fun of KDU. I sat down at the reception today, while CM was having an interview, and this was the pathetic conversation.

King Of pathetic-ness

Hellooo KDU college ! :)

Good Morning.

Hi, yeah~. :D

wah,early in the morning already so rude, I said good morning and y0u didn't bother to say good morning.

I've heard from PPL that KDU college people very rude want, I wana write to the newspaper to complain about it. You guys think that bla bla bla, cannot something bla bla.....

As he continues with his nonsense, I wanted to explain that i was new here,

and wadafuck, we only open at 8.30a.m, if you have any enquiries, call back

at 8.30, or you cant stop by to meet the caunsellors at 9.00++ .

but he hanged up.

well, Mr I-don't-know-ur-name ( beacause you didn't even bother listening to what I had to say ), a VERY good morning to you and go ahead and write to the

newspaper, or maybe even put ur FACE in the newspaper,

because you have no right to judge people when they only said 5 words to you.

and a happy new year of the BULL .

Gooday 'mate!

I can't help it.

Jamie Lee
08:41

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

To them, I was just a joke.

Jamie Lee
21:04

Monday, February 9, 2009

talking about college and aus is just like taking my parents life away, the way i feel they are rather exaggerating makes me feel very very unhappy. I'm not spoilt, and I'm definitely not rich, but I am really determined to continue studies in Aus. I really really want this to work, I've looked for job opportunities if i took this/that course and where does it bring me to and the cost of living, cost of courses, altogether. The environment, the seasons, the people and ALMOST everything about Aus. But before I was even given my chance to experience life in Aus, its all coming to an end. I swear, I will NOT go form 6 even if I were to stop studying.

Goodbye, Tazzie.

Goodbye, ah-dorable wild animals.

Goodbye, dreams of peaceful living in Tazzie.

screw this,
imma be a rockstar.

Jamie Lee
16:56

Sunday, February 8, 2009

:)

went to ou today with may, and checked out some shirts and shoes. . there was this shop selling clothes with words on it. some were freaking cool buuuuuuutttttttttt... I OBVIOUSLY did not buy ANY of it, becauseeeeeeeeeeeee.. it cost RM35.. HOW can they sell it at RM35?? those are just normal T's that people only bought because the words written on it and without the words, I'd rather walk around with a wrapped towel. . its not an insult, its the truth. You just can't sell something like that at RM 35?!?!?!?! I'll buy it. . in my dreams.

met the birthday boy and his friend in the cinema ( coincidently ) sitting RIGHT behind us. Pink Panther wasn't as good as expected, can't wait for Marley and Me.

Imma be a role model!
ditch the role.
make me a model!

Jamie Lee
21:58

Friday, February 6, 2009

MUST watch movies for 2009!!

visit GSC.movies.com.my to watch the trailers.

these are my favourites!! I'll assure you its worth watching.

Knowing

The Uninvited

X-men Origins : Wolverine

Terminator Salvation

Confessions of A Shopaholic

The Unborn

The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Transformers 2 : Revenge Of The Fallen

Marley And Me

My personal Fav!!

Hotel for dogs

He's Just not that into You

Jamie Lee
11:18

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

Result: Dream Girl

You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have. You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)

Jamie Lee
09:14

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

lion dance is sooooooooooooooo cute!!!!! i mean. the lion. .it was PURPLE~!!! the starting is a little boring, well, if u really want to watch the best part, stay and be patient. :) .

we had a new year lunch today in KDU, so we had a longer lunch break. after that, there were lion dancing as a part or entertainment. surprise surprise! the lion dance walked ( or should I say HOP ) into the office and spreading their luck?? i think. the adorable part is when they move their big heads left and right.. no wait. tilt their big heads left and right. so cute laaaaaaaaaaaa!! seriouslyy! sho sho adorable!! :3. If you think ur really ugly, look into the mirror and tilt ur head to the left, then to the right. It really helps~!!

and no. im not home. :)

P.s. For those fat people who aren't willing to exercise,

and only care bout eating,

yet want to look thin??

think twice about liposuction, trust me.

Jamie Lee
14:57

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

im guessing ur asking why am i blogging again?
im pissed.very.

i have no ~~fucking~~ freedom.
i dun mind outsiders reading this,
but family members should be completely shut out of this.
SERIOUSLY,
just because i put my cousin-in-law saying that she was gambling( kiddingly)
and the news spread ~~fucking~~ fast.
And my aunts are calling me because they say its bad to say that peoples gambling.
great
how ~~fucking~~ great.
I feel so **!&@%^%^# pissed off !^&#%^%@ now.
im so ~~fucking fuck~~ pissed now
I need ~~fucking~~ space,
I really do.
and i hope im not offending anyone.
please, give me some space.

Jamie Lee
19:24

Sunday, February 1, 2009

CNY!!! i only uploaded a few pics coz its super late, im sick, and sleepy.. couldnt sleep earlier because then i wouldnt feel sleepy and with this stupid blocked nose i most prob cant sleep..