there are times people get caught up with their thoughts. everyone does it. whenever this happens. we write. i can read minds. =)




she made a mistake. she believed and hoped much on everything he said. he miss her, he assured her, he wanted to spend time with her. it all turns out to be something that very much resembles nothing. bullshit. especially the part where he said he loved her. she knew very well. that if he loved her, he would know what he should do or should have done. but apparently, he didn't. does he even know what love is? do you think it'll even affect him if she left him? he said that he feels her. he understands her. which part of her does he understand? her effort, turns out to be just a waste of time. he thinks he can hide things. but honestly. he cant. she can feel him , thats for sure. maybe in his point of view , he realy did love her. but the fact is. she doesnt feel anything like that. at one point, she actually thought she was getting somewhere, apparently assumptions made with no confirmation turns out to be a road that leads to nowhere. she can't stand the thought of being used. not that she's been used. especially with someone whom she thought she was really into. whom had treated her life as a game. no one would admit to this. but somehow, at her point of view the way he treated her was like a game.or as the rebound girl. i guess she can only blame it to herself. willingly being the rebound girl. random decisions that brought her into. and no. she doesn't hate anyone for this. neither is she pissed. but she hates herself. for being like this and having the patience to unveil the truth. love just isn't the best word to describe what they had between them. among all the questions we asked. there was still one she couldn't answer. why do you like him? she left that question blank. i guess she took the time long enough to realize that this isn't what she wants or needed. what she needs is not someone thats running around trying to be someone elses one.and holding on to her just in case no one else wanted him as their one. what she needs is just someone that would be loyal to her and faithful enough to remain as her number one.

maybe to some of you,
this may look like nothing,
but just so you know.
she's also a girl who's trying to survive in this world.
she deserves respect.
or at least.
i do.