Its not Over


i'll be staying back tmr for handball finals. =) im guessing its green agaisnt blue. now. the problem is. who am i supporting?? heh. i support orange laaaaaaaaaaaa~~

there are times people get caught up with their thoughts. everyone does it. whenever this happens. we write. i can read minds. =)




she made a mistake. she believed and hoped much on everything he said. he miss her, he assured her, he wanted to spend time with her. it all turns out to be something that very much resembles nothing. bullshit. especially the part where he said he loved her. she knew very well. that if he loved her, he would know what he should do or should have done. but apparently, he didn't. does he even know what love is? do you think it'll even affect him if she left him? he said that he feels her. he understands her. which part of her does he understand? her effort, turns out to be just a waste of time. he thinks he can hide things. but honestly. he cant. she can feel him , thats for sure. maybe in his point of view , he realy did love her. but the fact is. she doesnt feel anything like that. at one point, she actually thought she was getting somewhere, apparently assumptions made with no confirmation turns out to be a road that leads to nowhere. she can't stand the thought of being used. not that she's been used. especially with someone whom she thought she was really into. whom had treated her life as a game. no one would admit to this. but somehow, at her point of view the way he treated her was like a game.or as the rebound girl. i guess she can only blame it to herself. willingly being the rebound girl. random decisions that brought her into. and no. she doesn't hate anyone for this. neither is she pissed. but she hates herself. for being like this and having the patience to unveil the truth. love just isn't the best word to describe what they had between them. among all the questions we asked. there was still one she couldn't answer. why do you like him? she left that question blank. i guess she took the time long enough to realize that this isn't what she wants or needed. what she needs is not someone thats running around trying to be someone elses one.and holding on to her just in case no one else wanted him as their one. what she needs is just someone that would be loyal to her and faithful enough to remain as her number one.

maybe to some of you,
this may look like nothing,
but just so you know.
she's also a girl who's trying to survive in this world.
she deserves respect.
or at least.
i do.

i went to watch all the team sports on thursday. stopped by bola baling then badminton then met up with the whore for vollelyball. heh. sorryy yl. for ffking you guys, yam cha-in in the SCHOOL canteen. XD. and sorry chai mei. for ditching u. you wanted to watch eng eu play and i wanted to watch bola baling. heh.


brandy nearly owed me 3 cokes. =) . we bet on bola baling. heh. not bad. but i didnt win any. well. yellow,red, blue and green are fighting for the golddddddddddd!!!! im from yellow house by the way. i know. i know. why? because of derrick and anil, my registration number in the school was changed. so me and wei heng was transfered from purple house to yellow house. ah ne way! congrats kenneth. for winning the mixed doubles against red house!! heh. aND! i played badminton!!

=) i know i havent been updating. but i will!!

i actually have something i really really wanted to write. but i left it in school . =.= potong. i actually wrote it down. i write when i feel like writing. so i leave it as draft. XD. i'll post it on tuesday.=)

ehhhhh neeeee way.
i went to sunway pyramid one day. i cant rmb when. because i havent been blogging. wel. u guys ever heard of zen?? the japanese restaurant?? wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. its was very very ver UNSATISFYING we shall say. my dad ordered this prawn thing. cost 6.90. but then it looked more like 3.90.im not criticizing. but really. almost every sushi on the 'moving sushi lane' had mayonaise on it. there is nothing to be compared to sakae sushi. sakae is my number 1 sushi restaurant!!






and i Saw FLOWERRRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSSS
so pwetty!

i have high taste for food. =)
whats good is good.
whats done is done.

i really really think somethings wrong with our school discipline. . first. they catch guys with long hair and hav thier hair cut. then. they catch guys who actually shave bald. not exactly hairless bald. with at least 3-5 cm of hair. and theeeeeennnnnn. they ban ppl from wearing baju kurung. AND theeennnnnn. they catch people for no reason. as in. i had my hair pinned up and all. they catch me. told me to sit and wait. wrote down my name. and said. oh. nothing d.you can go back. ?????????? Like. omgferswtf. then i asked teacher why'd they catch me. she actually replied. Why?? Patheticness is taking over the world. help.


life's good. really.

my poor dogs still limping. apparently. she's not getting any better. i told my parents that we should bring her to a vet. they refuse. on thursday. i felt this pain in my hip bone. right hip bone. which is the exact same leg my dogs limping on. it felt weird though. at first i thought it was just a coincidence. or it might be that i can feel her. i know i know. its so damn psycho-ish. but yeah. somehow. theres just a meaning to this. and i hope that i find that out soon. for now. im hoping for the best.

all of a sudden. i have this urge of cutting my hair . again.

i guess some of you have been hearing things. about others. and about me. i hope you are able to make a decision and believe whether its true or not. because sometimes. they have their motives. i can't blame anyone. they're just trying to survive in this world. their weakness is lack of attention.

rmb the plant i told you guys about me saving the trees?

well. meet the Jambu Air tree planted by me. heh.

my name is written ther. whenever you visit frangipani Langkawi. you can see it. =)

Learn to Love

i pity the people who wants people to pity them eventough they're not worth the pity but yet they won't give up trying to look for pity.Its like they need to keep all their pity inside a box and show others how pityful they are,how miserable, how unhappy their life is. so we can feel sorry for them and sympathize them. then try to comfort them and spend our time giving them all the attention we can, just to help them remove the pity inside them.



In other words,




its a strong word. but there are still people who dun really get the definition of it. Lack of attention means that you cant stand the spotlight being on someone else, then you try to do some pathetic things to attract attention. dun just run around calling people LOA, sometimes. it just doesnt suite the meaning.



you're pathetic,
i pity you.

1. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
2. At the end of the post the player then have to tags 5 people and post their names, then leaves a comment at their blog, letting them know they got tagged.

Starting time : 11.20pm
Name : Jamie Lee
Sisters : None
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 8/9
Height : 169cm
Where do you live : SS3.
Favourite drinks : orange JUICE!! ah. vitamin CCC!
Favourite breakfast : eggsss.
Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.
Fallen asleep at school : hardly.
Broken someone's heart : wat...i would'n wana be a murderer.XD
Fell off your chair : XD. yesh. quite fun.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : nopee.
Saved e-mails : ??
What is your room like : like . a room.
What is right besides you : couch.
What is the last thing you ate : maggie mee. XD
Ever had chicken pox : yeshhh
Sore throat : Duh.
Stitches : yeahh. 4 stictches
Broken nose : noppee

Do you believe in love at first sight : yeah. you hav nooo ideaa. =)
Like picnics : never really been at one. depends on the food. =)
Who was/were the last person you danced with : some friends.
Last made you laugh : ahhahah. i think its myself. LOL.

Today did you :

Talk to someone you like : duh.
Kissed anyone : hmmm....
Get sick : ah???
Talk to an ex : noooo
Miss someone : yeahhhh
Eat : yeahhhh~~


Best feeling in the world : hugging!!!
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : yeahh!! my pig and dolphin!!
What is under your bed : Nothing
Who do you really hate : hmm. i dun hate people actually..HONESTLY.
What time is it now? :

Random :

Is there a person who is on your mind now : yes.
Do you have any siblings : 1 elder brother.
Do you want children : thinkingg....
Do you smile often : heh. yes yes yes yesyesyesyesyeyse
Do you like your hand-writing : yes. its ugly in s nice way =)
Are your toe nails painted : No
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : some friend with water beds.XD
What colour shirt are you wearing now : im still in school uniform
What were you doing at 7.00pm yesterday : Having my dinner.
I cant wait till : spm is over!!
When did you cry last : cant rmb. XD
Are you a friendly person : HELL YEAH!!
Do you have any pets : yeah. dog and fish
Where is the person you have feelings for right now ? : no idea.XD
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now : yes.
Do you sleep with the TV on? : maybe
What are you doing right now? : SOOOMMMEEETHINGGGG
Have you ever crawled through a window? : noppee
Can you handle the truth? : yes. i take facts and truth easily
Are you too forgiving : mayyybe
Are you closer to you mother or father : DAD!
Who was the last person you cried in front of? : urhh.. duno

How many people can you say you've really loved? : 2. this is the 3rd one.
Do you eat healthy : Yupp.
Do you still have pictures of you and your ex? : noppeee.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : Nooo
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : Him <3

Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : is hyper loud or quiet?? hmmm
Are you confident? : yesss


5 Things I was doing 10years ago :

• learning
  
• training
• Laming
• Eating.
• dreaming
  

5 Things on my to-do list today :

• sleep
• stuuudy
  
• listen to music
• Bath. =)
  

5 snacks I enjoy :

WOW. heh. imma snack eater.


5 Things I would do if I were a bilionaire :

• open my own business.
• =) shop.
• own some famous designer shops.
  
• Travel the whole world

5 of my bad habits :

• burping.XD
• sitting kang kang. XD
  

5 Places I have lived in :

• hotels.
• houses.
• apartments.
  

5 Jobs I've had : None


5 people I tag : i tag no one.xD

i cant seem to be able to compare myself to you. or even find something tat i suck at more then you. you interfered. tried to ruin my reputation. whether you succeeded or not, its for you to decide. I deserved better treatment from you. why not just say it straight to my face? i know i don't see you all the time and mayb not at all. but it still wasn't necessary to talk shit about me and backstab me. and i had to wait till it spreaded around them so i'd get to know. some of them even came to me. and asked me what'd i do? wow. i crossed river,and climbed mountain. honestly. i cant answer that.

you don't own the world dear. just one simple shit you'd say about me and the whole world gonna bow to you and jail me? you and i both know the truth. and you and i both know that you're never gonna accept the truth. and you and I DEFINITELY know who's right and wrong. what you got back in return has nothing to do with me. your problems now, would mean nothing to me. i would help you. if you apologized.i gave you a chance to change. you thought you had your ways. You just won't change will you?

love is wat we tend to think about , dream about, lose sleep worrying about it, when we don't have it we'll search for it , when we discover it we don't know what to do with it. we fear of losing it, it is our source of pleasure and pain but it is unpredictable. its a short word. yet hard to define. and it is impossible. to live without it.


i miss athletics.
alot.

we all headed to swensons after school.^^. as in like. 3p.m .XD.





















oh. and after dinner. i was greeted by a dead mouse at home. princess found it. im so so proud of my dog. XD.








im sooo random la!!!
and im happy.
coz my blog is fixed.
hahah.
XD. wth.